Spare me some space, please?

Hi.
I really really don't know why i'm still living in this house, at this place. To be truthful, it doesn't even freaking feel homey at all.
and how the hell do you expect a person to stay at a place where he totally hates, where everything he does are not of his own will. Sounds like a robot huh.

yup that's me.

I'm feeling more and more trival in this house, or am i just being too paranoid.

i don't know,
i'm just , lost.